An Update on My Battle With Depression and Panic Attacks – Brian’s Blog

Earlier this year I shared with you my battle with depression and have written before about trying to handle my panic attacks as well. I thought it was time for a little update on how things are going. Depression is a very real and very frightening thing that can happen to anyone, no matter how happy or well off they may seem. The most important thing is recognizing that it exists and that there is help for it. Don't be silent. Talk to someone about it. You are not alone. I am right there with you and so are so many others that you would never expect.

I went into my deepest depression yet during the holidays this past year. I sought professional help and it has been a great move for me. I am now on several pills including Wellbutrin and others. I have noticed a big difference in my 'evenness' emotionally. I have still had a few panic attacks. They tend to hit me the most when I am away home or my comfort zone. My wife and I went to Arizona for our 30th anniversary in March and of course I had a panic attack on our anniversary. I sat on the hotel bed and was a puddle of tears for no reason that I could think of. I felt so awful for my wife as I was once again ruining a special time with my messed up head. I try to not let it happen but I really don't feel I am in complete control. The attacks have been much more infrequent and I have handled the depression much better as well. I can thank the pills but the big difference has been sleep.

I have been told so many times about the benefits of proper sleep from Susan's husband, my buddy, Dr. Bob. Bob has always preached the benefits of restorative sleep and it's importance for mental health. I have finally listened and changed my sleeping habits. I now make my sleep a priority and realize that I am better in every way if I am rested. I go to bed between 7-8 pm every night and get up around 2 am each day. I make sure I am getting nearly a good 7 hours of real sleep each night. I have felt so much better physically but most importantly, mentally. I feel so much more grounded and in control of my mind when I get my sleep. If you can do one thing for yourself and those who love and care about you, it is to get your rest. There is nothing more important. Work can wait and so can anything else. You are no good to yourself or the world if you are not letting your brain recharge. I am living proof that a little more sleep can go a long way. I will always be a bit of a mess and have my battles but with proper sleep, I am ready for the fight and will win.