I am a diabetic. I hate it with the intensity of 10,000 suns but it is something I have to deal with all day, every day. It is such a complicated and confusing disease. I get tired of constantly pricking my finger to check blood sugar levels. I hate sticking myself with needles several times a day and being tethered to a blood monitor in order to try to live a normal life. Enough complaining. I am here and it is controllable, it just takes a lot of work. I am lucky I have a wife who has now taken the job of helping me take care of me. I have learned that this is way too difficult to do on my own and need help.

I have this tendency to start feeling ten feet tall and bullet proof and think I don't need my meds or that I can eat whatever I want. Truth is I can't. I will fall off the wagon and can feel myself start slipping if I don't constantly watch myself. I had been going through a tough patch where I have been battling some infections that just won't heal and couldn't get my blood sugars down. They were averaging around 300 which is 3 times higher than they should be. I finally broke down and went to a diabetes specialist. He changed up my insulin intake and has me counting my carbs. I am limited to a goal of 30 carbs per meal. Do you know how hard that is for a man who loves bread and potatoes? There are over 50 carbs in one bagel. A can of tomato soup has over 50. What the hell can I eat? I have found that meat, cheese and lettuce seem to be what is permissible. I just spent the whole weekend actually counting what I was putting in me and doing the proper insulin dosage, ate 3 salads and went from the mid 300's to reading under 90 in just three days. I feel great. I can feel my brain clearing up and my body will begin healing like it should. There will be times when I say screw it and need a Snicker but for the most part I will be counting and trying to keep this where it is right now.

I know there are many many diabetics out there who know this battle. Don't give up. Fight daily for your health for you and those who love you. I am just accepting the fact that I will read every food label and will be hungry for the rest of my life unless they somehow make lettuce filling. I will miss you starches. We have had a great love affair but I am giving you up so I can live a little longer. I may still meet you in a dark alley now and then but we will never again be an item. If I can do it, so can you. We can maintain a healthy diabetic lifestyle. Let's do this together. I cannot do it alone.

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